Smoking Prayer
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This is a prayer ritual for those who smoke. I wrote it a while ago, but I thought I'd share it here.

A Small Ceremony for Smokers: For the Betterment of Themselves and Mankind

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(Before lighting the cigarette, say this invocation)

Supernal Lights come down
Let the Beauty of Your Garments shine upon my Foundation
As Rain falls to the Roots of a Tree planted in a Kingdom divided
Let just an Echo of Your Ineffable and Endless Name vibrate my Burning Core

(Light the cigarette and say the following prayer)

Hear my Voice on the bellowing billows of Smoke that Arise from my lungs
Let my Words be pleasing to Your ears as I seek Truth to Guard them
Watch my Body in its slightest of sways as I dance upon this Earth
Let every Step delight You as I seek Honor and Grace to Motivate them

Know my every Thought that flickers behind my face
Let my Attentions make You silently proud as I seek to start them always with Awareness

Let my Spirit be as the Purest Incense and the Brightest Flame upon the Stillest Water
That I may be One with You and Know the Knowledge that has been hidden from me
So that I may be in Harmony with All that Exists

(As you finish smoking, think upon the words you have said)
(As you extinguish the cigarette say the following)

All things Change
Therefore, so must I
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This ceremony doesn't need to be performed every day, though there would be much benefit in that. Once a week is acceptable, but if you are a smoker then using one or two cigarettes from each pack in this ceremony is ideal. Also, reciting the Closing ("All things change, therefore, so must I") each time you extinguish your cigarette is a beneficial practice.
Of course, you need not smoke tobacco. You may also use any preferred herbs, herbal blends, or any other preferred substance.

This easy ceremony is perfect for smokers because they will more than likely smoke several times a day. Each time will be a reminder of the ceremony and the Ideas that it reinforces, especially if it has been practiced multiple times.

If you do not wish to smoke anything, then you may alter the ceremony thusly: Take time to clear a small, isolated space. Set a candle or incense there; though a small candle floating in water with incense burning next to it would be better. Then take a moment to focus on what you are about to do and not think about anything else in your life before beginning.

Also, if you think that what has been written here is nice but don't do anything to act upon the Truths that are conveyed, then you haven't benefited at all from it. If you don't actively live out what you believe, then do you really believe it at all? Saying you believe something isn't enough because Words are for conveying Ideas. But Actions are for bringing Ideas to life.

This ceremony isn't only for those who believe in a "Higher Power;" this prayer doesn't need to be focused toward any "God." Instead, focus the "prayer" toward the very Source of your Existence. Every movement of your body is controlled by the processes of your mind. But what are the processes, movements, and thoughts of your mind controlled by? Find the Deepest part of your Self and aim the prayers there. Do this not in order to get into any mythical Kingdom of Heaven, but simply for the Inner Evolution of your Self, the Inner Evolution of Mankind, and the Fruitful Evolution of Nature.
This meditation is simply to encourage Mindfulness and a Harmonious Attitude.

People confess all of the time that they want the world to be a better place. It isn't impossible; it just takes a little effort. We can start by improving ourselves and the world around us. If everyone did this, then the world would actually be a better place.

A deer hit ME!
ka ka
As some of you may know, I have been working on a book. Okay... a few books. One is about the Shem ha-Mephorash; another is a novel; and the other is a book of pictures of roadkill. Yeah. Roadkill.

Brit and I have been working together on it and have taken around 60-70 photos of various animals that have been hit by cars. At first you may think that the book sounds very funny, but it isn't. Seriously, what the hell is funny about seeing a deer ripped in half and mangled all over the road with its insides spread out over 30 feet?

So far, the whole picture taking experience has been powerful. Quite the intense meditation on death, mortality, and change. (Quite fitting considering what OTO degree I reside in at the moment) But the whole experience got even more intense last night.

While on our way into town last night around 8, while driving at around 40 mph, a very young buck ran into our car. It had been bounding along and we didn't see it until the split second before it hit the car. The instant it hit and I saw the headlight pieces flying everywhere, I knew it was dead. We immediately stopped to assess the damage to ourselves, the car, and of course the deer (which had landed in the ditch on the opposite side of the road).

My neck hurt a little. The driver's side headlight housing unit was demolished and the body over the wheel well was banged up. We then hurried to the deer and wished we had a gun. It wasn't torn in half or mutilated, but I was sure its lungs had been punctured by broken ribs. I could see it gasping for breath. I wanted a gun so bad so I could just put it out of its misery, but I didn't have one. It didn't take long before I saw it take its dying breath. Our joyful day had taken a sudden, sober turn. We had helped to end a life; a beautiful life; a life of a creature that some have called a messenger of the gods. It was wounded and we couldn't mend it.

We reluctantly took a picture of the freshly dead corpse with Brit's phone camera. After a while we got close, laid our hands on it, and offered our apologies and best wishes of peace and rest. With blessings given and our hearts extended, we left the scene with tears in our eyes.

Roadkill... Indeed...

A good quote
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"Many people walk in a dream. They feel entitled to happiness and feel anger when it is not waiting for them. I know that the world owes me nothing, yet has given me a great deal. It is our own perception we get to bend and mold to our liking, ...once that is accomplished, the reality we once knew begins to change."           -The Sound of Animals Fighting

A Quarter of the way there...
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So, I've been doing a lot of thinking on the Shem ha-Mephorash for the last...couple years. Recently, I have taken it upon myself to really submerge myself in this system. In order to do this, I have started to memorize the entire 216 letter name; all 72 names. I have memorized 34 letters, or 18 names, so far; this is 1/4 of the entire name.

Furthermore, I have been focusing the names into 9 spheres. These spheres are the 7 chakras plus 2 other important areas. I vibrate the names into a sphere that encompasses the knees, and another that encompasses the feet.

For each sphere, there are 2 names. By dividing the names up into groups of the elements, each sphere will end up with 2 names from each element and amazingly, most of the angels seem to have the same powers and work together harmoniously.

I have also done some research into applying the names to certain joints in the body in a balanced way.

So far, the results have been spectacular, in my opinion. The power from meditating on the name alone has brought about some very interesting events and states of mind. I haven't documented it very well so far, but I am working on that. I am also working on a way to present all of the research I have done and the conclusions I have come to.

an update
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Howdy all. I've been well and I hope you have been too.

Not much has changed in my life, though I am supposed to move to Montana soon. Brit and I are turning in our applications to an indian college there, so we'll be living on the reservation (again, in my case). We're pretty excited about that. Plus, it'll give a much needed change of pace and distance from..."less than desirable" situations that have been brewing here.

I've been playing guitar more, which is good because I put it down for a few months there and I was missing it a lot. Been working on music that is more classically inspired and I'm liking the results.

I'm also working on a novel now. I'm pretty excited about it. I only have a chunk of the first chapter written, but I've been working through the outline before I write much more. I gotta know where I'm going with this thing, right?

And, as I've said many times before, I'd like to start posting on here more often. But, we all know how that has worked out before. We'll see soon enough.....

Hey, I wrote a little thingy!
ka ka
Howdy everyone. I wrote a little article about the LBRP just for fun. Check it out!

End of July
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Wow. What a ride this month has been. It started out with a lot of promise and quickly took a turn into a shit storm of financial fury. Work became scarce and I thought that I was totally boned there. I actually thought I was going to have a hard time getting work with C.D. all together. But I meditated on a spirit named Menadael (of the Shem ha-Mephorash). Job is still secure and thanks to the help of a Sister in the company I got a couple packages (that I wasn't even trying for), with a possible opening with another company; but I promised I wouldn't mention any specifics about who is involved with what company, so mum's the word. That person knows who they are ;)

Been working my ass off as well. Got an entire half pack done in just today (or at least all but four keywords because they didn't set the last four).

Still have financial problems, but things are looking up and shit is getting done.

We had planned to go traveling this fall, but money problems prevented us from going on the trip we had planned. However, we still get to travel! What is amazing is that we wanted to go camping in Colorado... now a couple of our friends are going camping in Colorado and they want us to go along. What is even more amazing is that they said that we don't have to pay for anything but our food, and they'll even throw in for that a little.

The group T-Dog started, Disciples of Thelema, has been going great; though we've been missing T-Dog. Today was the first meeting that we didn't do pranayama and we didn't have a discussion group or workshop. Instead, we had a schedule planning meeting. We had some great ideas and all of them build on one another. We're going to have some great classes and a lot of learning and practicing going on. Plus, a female I met on facebook is interested in coming to the group.

The only area that I am really slacking in these days is my music. I haven't been playing nearly as much as I have in the past. In fact, I haven't really been playing at all. I blame it on the fact that I like to play and write when I am by myself, but we live in a studio apartment so there's only one room. I never get time to myself. I'll have to work something out with Brit or just get over it. I am letting my own excuses interfere with my Will. I WILL NOT let that go on anymore.

It's the end of July and it will soon be August. I'm looking forward to what the Universe has to offer.

Fuck you all! I love you!
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It is my birthday!

Thank you LiveJournal
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I just got a message in my inbox telling me that my birthday is coming up.

Glad they told me because otherwise I would have forgotten!

a quick post
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I'm busy working, but I have to put down this idea and share it people who will understand.

There needs to be a book- a text book. There needs to be a school.

Prostitution needs to be shown to be sacred to the world. Prostitutes need to be trained in this sacred art.

I went to massage therapy school and heard so many times how horrible it was that people think of massage therapists as whores. But what if prostitution was legalized and didn't just require STD tests? What if they were required to go through school so that they can know how to please better, know the history of their profession, give erotic massage, understand the psychological effects of sex, know a little bit about counseling for those who are lonely?

There needs to be a text book. There needs to be a school.

That is all. Back to work now.


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